show me the proper path.
show me the righteous way.
i feel much negativeness now.
i could not control myself.
please forgive me.
i seek solace.
but what do i do when the one i usually turn to is going to make me worse.
forgive me.
put me back where i belong dear god.
to your faith, to my family, to my friends, to Irna Dayana.

i miss my life..

god, please take care of Irna.
please do not let her neither be astray nor alone.
this heart will ache if it sees her happy,
but let it be, ensure she's happy dear god for she deserves it after a long and tiring battle.
this is my price i have to pay.
the faith between me and her lies in you.
and i will forever wait for the day when you'll bestow Irna and I together again in compliance with your consent.
but i heed the path you sent for me now.
however neglect not my prayers.
hear me. i hear your call. hear me.
god, please lead Irna to a bright path.
keep her safe from harm in any possible way.

and irna, god-willing, i'll wait for you at the end of that bright path,
where i'll be there to take over your hand in marriage.
my lifelong dream, to marry someone i truly love inside out.
you'll be in my heart no matter where i go.
my apology will never be enough, but please forgive me.
allow me to kiss your broken heart,
and renew and rebuild everything one fine day with god's consent.
the promises i made, shall forever stand.
and i will love you till my very end.

stay true i will.

thank you god.
every path you take me is seen as a gift.. a meaning with much privileges.
and it will be treasured and appreciated as such.