this is hard.
you know.. this.. moving on, moving along, from someone you once loved soo much.
its soo hard. my mind is being it's usual stubborn self, it wants to see you, and after it does, it goes weak, and then it goes fickle.
i was dedicated enough alright. but i guess it's misused?
i was gonna give my all. but i guess it's taken for granted?
and after all that has happened,
it gets even weirder when i realise, im moving on.. because.. i ..

*sigh* but yeah. am happy to know you're moving on too.
despite it all, i'll never forget you.
i hope to see you again. you'll be dearly missed.

yo!
i look ugleh/tired/shitty in these photos,
but i dont give shit no more. seriously.
here's me, CBK, and random people!



meet CBK drummer, Kyle! and ooooh, i got his broken stick. well, a portion of it.














meet CBK frontmen, Andrew! weird, he has a huge body, but his voice live and on record sounds like... -_-. but i didnt say its not nice la.

bye fucks.

*many thanks to sya hysteria

Should rasoool-eris.blogspot.com cease it's operation?
YOU decide.
Tagg, NOW!

chey chey.
paderhal i dont think anyone bothers.
oh well.
YOUR vote still counts!
hahahaha.

yo.
friday and saturday was awe-fucking-some!
everything went a-okay!
and i had a great time at CBK. one of the best shows ive ever been to!
here's what you missed (for those who didnt go). .



gerek giler lah!

and and, wanna see something stupid?
look what i got.. hurhurhur.







tangan mcm besar gitu.. paderhal.. HAHA!
ok, im a loosar!

i've let it out.
for a moment it felt good.
and then.. its all.. ]:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

"Hey Rasul, how's everything?"
"Everything is disastrous."
"Oh.. why?"
"Dont you read papers? Everything, everywhere is going disastrous."
"Oh.. i mean.. you. How are you?"
"Disastrous."
" =__=' "


so.. april is drawing to a close.
just like the other gazillion blog posts worldwide, stating 'how fast time flies', ah yah,
im gonna say the exact same thing too. HOW FAST TIME FLIES.

comeback kid tmr. hooray.
eris show saturday. hooray.

some things im not in hooray mood thou. ]:
i miss you r a m s e y.

okay hello.
another week, another bullshit.
work is getting better. starting i was like this blur kid, where my other colleagues think i knew nothing and im acting blur and slow. well thats only because they dont know me, and im far too quiet. wasnt really a good week to start work i guess. things were happnening, and my mood wasnt at it's best. so yeah, i guess that explains it. but after awhile, it gets better, i felt like im in demand. hahahaha.

there's this one day, a customer was being rather weird..
(folds hand and places them on a shelf, looks at name tag) "so your name is rasul?"
"uhhh.. yeah?"
"do you know what rasul means?"
(replies in a split second) "uhmm, the messenger of god."
"aah yes, the messenger of god. are you muslim?"
"yeah."
"when somebody asks if you're muslim, you say alhamdulillah."
"oookay, alhamdulillah."
"alhamdulillah, the (blablablablablablablablablablablabla, i cant remember what he said but it was like syarahan to me)... and that's what alhamdulillah means."

then, his wife call out, looking concerned, shook her head. her face was also giving this, "dont disturb that boy" kinda look. it amuses me alot.
i dont quite understand him. and i wonder if he was being nice or...




so anyway, tuesday jam again.
prepare for awesome-ness!

other then that, i miss people.

and you, you said you'll do better?

HAHAHA FUCK YOU ASS SHITZXZXZ!
I GOT MY WINDS OF PLAGUE, 'DECIMATE THE WEAK' CD AND
IM LOVIN IT. I KNOW NONE OF YOU GUYS DONT GIVE A SHIT,
BUT ITS MY BLOG SO FUCK YOU.

HAHAHAHA.

k bye.

Next friday - Comeback Kid.
Next saturday - El Luchadore, Every Rage I Seek.
This June - Revolutionary Soundwaves Part2, Every Rage I Seek.
This august - Caliban.

How fucking cool is that?

tomorrow, jamming. PERFECT TIMING.
i need this now more then ever.
MORE THEN EVER.

Music Therapy is back again for me.

Oh this is so hard.
I dont know what happened. i try so much and so hard to make things work. And for 3 days, i leave it for a test and it ended up like this. *sighsighsigh
Its tough. And just so to let you know, im not feeling good about this.. at all. :[ oh well. if you're not willing, then there's nothing much i can do now. i hope we'll still see each other again some day. i'll miss you (which i already do).


goodluck with your 868634782364873. :[
i still love you nur aisha.
please do takecare, and dont you ever forget me.

WORK IS TIRING!
hahhaa. serious.
first day is rated 4/10.

Can you just feel this song? Can you? Can you?!
It wont take more then a min, so just sit down, shut up and listen.
Whoah, macam nk pecahkan kepale org. Hahaha.
See, even the bear is headbanging.

For a moment, i can be at the highest of highs.
And the next second, im at the lowest of lows.
For most things, it takes huge amounts of effort and time to build something up,
and takes only a few mishaps to bring it all down again.

I hate it when this happens.

Saturday was surprisingly okay.
Thou.. it could have been better.
Haha.

I miss jammings.
I miss ERIS.
I miss pinetart.
and no, i dont owe you any photos.
but YOU DO. :D heh.

ERIS is honoured to be the OPENING BAND for the
Porvida/Am I Robot split EP release party this 26th.
BE THERE.

wah, shagged siol semalam bola niari bola.

alhamdulillah/thank god, i FINALLY got me self a job!
heh heh.
cant wait.

things are turning good i guess. social life is rolling in again. im playing sports oftenly again. soccer today, soccer tomorrow, soccer thursday. jogging thursday. ns preparation? maybe. HAHA. my current 2.4km timing is 13min. this sucks so bad. i drop a whole lot. hoping to see a difference after 3 weeks. heh.

and shoot, no jam this week. aaah.
i still want to hit something so badly!
btw, my friends from Cape Verda, all the best for your show in JB this weekend.
sorry i couldnt follow.
"in this fucking!" :]

hi.

whats up.
haven't been updating. why? cause i dont know. shit happens week after week. and its all the same shit to me. Last 2 week, ERIS just had it's 13th show. Playing last band. Missed Cassandra playing at Home Club, bloody shit. haha. But its alright. Huge thanks to those who stayed back till the very last strum. Appreciate it alot. New song done. Old songs yet to modify. Upcoming show, maybe 26th april? And june, and hopefully another one outside the border this july.

It has been the longest 11 days (and counting) since i last see NurAisha. Haha, im missing her a whole lot. Undeniable really. And i sure cant wait to be with her again.. whenever that may be (soon i hope :[ ).

Oh and i cld have sweared that last friday was going to be the most boringggg-est day ever. Lonely as fuck with no plans whatsoever. Head home after prayers, and suddenly a group of friends invited me somewhere. HAHAHA. Gotta admit i was very reluctant at first. Was my first time being there. Quite fun. Tknk elaborate. Not sure if i'll go again thou. But its definately one of those big chunk in my history. haha. Thanks ah guys.

And i feel like im wasting my time nowadays. I mean, this, doing nothing and waiting for NS. Its soo weird. Where is life. I dont wanna go NS. I dont wanna know when im going in. AAAAH. As strange as it seems, I want to get back to class and study. I wanna make things more worthwhile, for me, for my family. There's really nothing to do now, except to get a temp job which ive been desperately searching for or to be the house maid so that paps and mom will be happy when they get home from a tiring day at work. Even if they (NS) were to call me right now, i still wouldnt want that. Cause I still wanna meet dearAisha, i still wanna meet my band, my friends, and hoorayhooray like there's no tmr.
This sucks so much.

Having that said, im looking for a job today. wish me luck.
And oh, wednesday, 11 to 3, Kallang, soccer at The Cage. interested, tell me.

Have a good week ahead people.

Will you count me in

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin like a child now
Cause everytime I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I'll always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I'll always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just hmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I'll always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holding me tight

Wherever, wherever, wherever you go
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go
Wherever you go
Always know
Cause you make me smile even just for a while

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haiya.