yo.

normal updates.
went danceworks on sunday. felt it was okay. some dances were great, really made me feel like dancing!
then on to esplanade. sit arounds as usual.
and adik, why must you visit courts on my off-day?! argh! haha.

ohh, i soo want to play this song..
DESPISED ICON - THE SUNSET WILL NEVER CHARM US



always tasted better live for me..



such deathcore orgasms!

ouh yeah, which reminds me,
last week's jam was fucking awesome. everyone was rage-ed till it affects the whole mood in the room. everything was well-tuned. i love it. prolly one of the best jams ever. cant wait for this week's! new place ehh korang!

okay. next off day - wednesday. ask me out someone please!!!

OHH BOY. RAGE GATHERED INDEED.

you know what. my mind has just not been responding and it's time i push the alt+ctrl+delete button and restart all over. reverse psychology might just be the answer to my many shit bags.
i used to laugh at all these things,
and they despise me for i have no heart,
but oh ohh, i started to giggle.
soon i'll make this laugh contagious.
living up to my name? maybe.
hell yeah for today im back,
as i stand from this seats of your despair,
and onward, for my remedy can only be gathering more strife, in discord.

im so gonna fuck the room up for today's jamming. cant wait.

thank YOU for even bothering to read my pathetic online diary.
how nice of you to come by often.
appreciate it. pls do come again.

okay turn off.

azhar : "dude, do you know how pathetic you sound like?"

shit.
a major wake up call.
i take that as a tight hard slap to my face.

rasul, you were nvr like this. never . so stop it.
stop your hopeless whines hoping tmr wld be a better day.
cos it wont.

it suck to wake up on a losing edge.
i seriously need to shower myself out from everything.
everything wrong which is hitting me on impulse.
but forget me. i hope everyone else is happy.

err. anyone cares to sing promiscuous with me?

okay turn off! (no i aint happy)

okay. so i lost.
lost everything and back to square one.
it has been repeating for the past 2 years and i hate it.
i swear i hate it. its getting me nowhere and the worse part is i only have myself to blame.
and now, trying, im trying again. hopefully, i'll get this time right.
i know i want to. please get it right rasul.



okay, i initially had no plans today.
i had the house to myself but was dying to get out. but no one wants out. how frustrating. got myself restless and so i just leave the place.
thankfully fanaa msged me at the last minute just before i board the train.
we met for lunch. and on to meet mus. hang arnd. thanks faana. both occasion seems to be made at the last minute but im happy it turns out fine. heh.
so separated in the evening as i head on to city hall, meet shazni and friends from the wedding march. more hainging arnd till late. then home. home alone!

ouh yes, my com is repaired!!! ah yey yey!

okay tmr work, bye!

okay, somebody pls help me.
sitting for hours at work doing nothing but listening to radio-hits music
can somehow get me addicted..

im stuck to this one at the moment,
[Chorus]
Promiscuous girl, Wherever you are I’m all alone, And it's you that I want,
Promiscuous boy, You already know, That I’m all yours, What you waitin' for?
Promiscuous girl, You're teasin' me, You know what I want, And I got what you need, Promiscuous boy, Let's get to the point, Cause we're on a roll, You ready?

weird isnt it?!
pop music by day, and then tune in to some despised icon by night.

alright,
so yesterday was total metalcore night.
our set was alright.
i think we played okay.

after that went esplanade,
chill with friends.
all in all, its a great day la.

parents are going malacca to visit my grandparents tonight.
but im not going.
that means im going to be home alone for 2 nights,
and im off from work tmr,
so somebody PLEASE ask me out alright. =)

alright, so i failed my O-level maths.
but so what, i only studied 3 hours per week with my eyes close.
english, maths, passed. alhamdulillah. :)

but ive applied for my ITE higher nitec thou.
hopefully i'll get in to business administration,
in bishan college again (hopes).

next week, is gonna be a great week.
tuesday, graduation ceremony,
thurs, fri off days (no plans yet),
sat. total metalcore gig
(ive got tix already, 10 bucks each, call me!)

okaye bye.

okaye, so tomorrow is the release of the O-level results.
for some reasons im not at all concerned.
however, i wld like to wish the best of luck for fellow friends yeah. =D

and so yesterday was jamming.
played the new song, and i think its awesome.

after jamming, was rather lost. had no mood.
only i know why.
but all is well now.

imy, noraina.

to the one,
remorse sets in on me,
as i was confronted with a challenge,
so light, yet so affected.
it contorts me,
badly leaving stains of your aches.
i saw the night,
as i call another second,
for your sight.
for love, im lost,
for you, im found.
underneath it all,theres still life.
despite it all, i still love.
i wont forsake,
lets not erase,
come back, come back,
for we shall love again.

im not emo. im human. it hits me once in ahwile.

IM SOOOO BLOODY BORED AT WORK!

i never thought sitting still for hours in a cashier's "cubicle" could be so hard!
i must say, the job isnt difficult, but doing NOTHING is!
theres nothing to do here except to stare as far as i can see. even if theres' people, it wldnt be so bad, atleast i cld help them or simply just see them.
but now, theres nothing to do, no one to see, nothing to eat, no where to go! im soo confined! its as good as jail! &*&^%&*^%&%$%&**!#@!!!!

alright, so tomorrow's off day, hooray!
i wld like to see dear noraina after sooo long (after sch eh!).
and jamming in the evening, guys i cant wait to play the new song!!!
every rage i seek has a new song and its entitled - light of your saviour extinguished.
hope to play it on the 17th!

oh yeah, and last sunday's gig, my god, it sucked.
nobody seh.
nvm, onward the 17th!!

friday's gonna be the release of the o-level result. and im not worried. cos i think i know how "well" i did. so yeah, ive prepared for the worse. 3 certs wont take me nowhere anyway.

okaye, back to my boring job!

random updates! (better than nothing)

went out to watch soccer with father yesterday. thanks to tasha for the last minute tickets (you owe me a dollar). felt that the match was lousy. yeah spore wins, but still, it was such a weak game laa. i want a refund!! ohh, but i do love it when everyone shouts BUTO in unison thou.
haha!

HELLOOO EVERYONE!

been busy lately. work and stuff so that explains the long MIA. (im updating cos its bloody boring at work)

work is fine, same old boring routines which needs to go through everyday.

outside life is good, friends, family blablabla, you wldnt want to know..

EVERY RAGE I SEEK wil be having a last minute gig THIS sunday.
ENTER THE MOSHPIT 2, $6, GasHaus, featuring the finest metalcore bands!

i miss everyone!