;and now this is for the hearts still beating.

Friday, October 10, 2008

I owe many people an apology.
For those who know me, i dont run.
Im not shutting down my blog, im not ignoring sentences,
i am not going to run.

Watch me, hear me, and for some, forgive me if any of you could..

I am sorry.

I apologise to you now, Irna, for letting out so much damage and
jeapordising everything that you and i built.
For putting you in deep angst, and for me being defiant.
I wouldn't want to apologise only behind closed doors, so im placing it here.
Put this in mind people, that Im apologising because im wrong,
and not because im trying to redeem myself.
But if I could, then im most thankful. I am ever thankful.
Im defending myself no more. Cause the bottom line is clear.
And im still here, placing my white flag, and embracing it.
It takes a man to be doing sins,
but i suppose it takes a real man to admit it and sincerely say he's sorry.
People of today would find it hard to buy that 5 letter word,
but im putting my word right here, that i'll strive so hard till
hopefully, one fine day, you would take it, keep it
and eventually, I won't even have the need to say it no more. Ever again.
To everyone, im not typing this blindly.
I know my consquences for putting these words and putting my trust and faith on the line.
All of you here read it. And im here to abide by it.
At the end of the day, its up to you individuals to bypass it.
To you people who would take these words as bullshit,
then hey, go ahead. I understand. Despise me.
My friends, I am wrong. So back me up no more.
Neglect me not, however guide me instead to fulfill my words.

Above all, Im wronged. I am truly sorry.

After all that has been said,
should anyone still would like to hear me say personally,
let me know. Tagboard's right there.
And should anyone wants to vent their grudges against me,
I'll be at Wheelock 5 days a week.
My band is playing tomorrow at the Malay Village, you can find me there too.

After this post, i'll be thankful if anyone would still see Rasul the same way as before.
But even if you dont, it'll still be ok, as long as it has served justice to any of you.
If you realise, this post is meant not to just one, nor two people.
Its meant for everyone else too, those who helped, those who were disgusted,
basically those who were there during the times of mayhem.

I dont think you would all hear me bring this up anymore.
Not because i'm being a coward.
But because i dont want to inflict any harm to the heart for you, for them and for me.

As of right now, im putting my chin and up and walk.
Again, i am so sorry.
Come what may.

I would like to end with this..
"Learn to love and love to learn"
it makes perfect sense to me.

Thank you and have a lovely day.

Rasul.
(No more rasoool).

posted at 12:22 AM by rasoool