The news below is taken from the Every Rage I Seek's myspace blog..

"Hi guys.

As some of you might have seemed to notice (or speculate) about a recent change in our line up, this entree is hereby posted to confirm it all.

There is nothing wrong under the "Band Members" listing on our myspace. We regret to inform everyone that long-time buddy and bassist, Shazni, is no longer part of Every Rage I Seek. The band is greatly thankful for his massive contributions and onward commitments for the past 3 years. Shazni helped to shape the band in many ways, mainly being the band's ultimate turning point musically, bringing the band's sound heavier then it's older influences. Shazni also contributed heavily on the ERIS songs that you hear, both old and new.. from the very first few originals - Light of Your Saviour, Sweet Revenge, all the way to the newer ones like Iconoclast.
The band would like to thank Shazni for all that he has done towards ERIS and would like to wish him the very best for his future endeavours.

Having that said, the band has been constantly on the prowl for someone to fill in the bassist's shoes. Welcoming Every Rage I Seek's new bassist, Ammar, is also a long-time buddy of the band.

We cant wait to start work again.. Bring on the year-end shows!
See you all real soon!

Rasul,
Every Rage I Seek. "

I for one, will surely miss that boy's antics. Im pretty sure the rest of the boys would too. To my brutal dude whom ive known for 3 years, i regard you as a valuable friend, brother and bandmate man. At times we all go our own way but at the end of the day we know its still ok.
Call me sentimental, i dont care if youre not, but hey, i seriously treasure all those fun and shitty moments that we go thru man. The trip to catch MYHC Fest, Bleeding Through, fun times man. Jammings, your awkward but hillarious acts in and out of the studio. Your sexcapades stories which you share. Damn, i'll miss it all. I hope you wld still come down and hang around with ERIS once in awhile yeah. I really hope you would. Even for the KL show.. to come and think of it, ive never been to that land without you man. Haha so yeah.. take care alright. I'll see you soon shaz.

Nothing much to say.
Work work work.
Spend spend spend.
Love love love.
Jam jam jam.

Yep, i got all that i need right here.

Here's for a better week ahead for me and for everyone!

PS: I miss Irna Banana ku. Like THIS much. Ok no, ifinity times bigger then that actually. heh.

AKU SAYANG IRNA BUAT SELAMA-LAMANYA!!

hehe. i cant help myself.
baby, i miss you.

"Faith Or Forgiveness"


The show last night was fucken awesome.
Yes, there were hiccups here and there,
but the sound was fucken loved.
I love the venue too. Cool-almost torned down-place.
Simply awesome. If only the crowd was moving their ass up and around to the noise.

Thank you Irna for the lovelylovely day and for being the only support i need.
Heh. Nyam.
I love you I love you.

And ERIS, damnit, i kept saying this, but i love you guys man.
I cant wait for the Malaysian dates.
I cant wait to start on more new songs.
Damn, i just cant wait for the next time we jam man.
Onward, fucking onward.
The music video above is for you boys.
Likewise, 3 years, and counting, a long time for any endeavors.
Here's the lyrics..

Faith or Forgiveness
Three years, and counting, a long time for any endeavors.
Just get us away from here.

I have something you should know, that this will never end,
and our legs will forever hold these scars.
There's something you should know, there's more to this story,
we'll never fade, and our arms will forever have these scars.

Set a course, through sand and storm.
Never fearful, and always hopeful.

I have something you should know, that this will never end,
and our legs will forever hold these scars.
There's something you should know, there's more to this story,
we'll never fade, and our arms will forever have these scars.

We'd pray to find our place.
Take flight to eastern skies,
and when the winds change,
we'll be blown back to here.

Bitter and betrayed,
broken but never disbanded, we gave it our all.
I was jaded then, and maybe I still am, but will push on.

Missing but mended, some hearts never break.
The things inside us all, found only to be stronger than before.

(I have something you should know)
Ill see you when the sun sets...

Every Rage I Seek will be playing at Mosh Party at the Malay Village today at 7pm
with Radiant Archery, Dante's Theory and many others.

Every Rage I Seek has done a new track with the same name and will be playing
a whole line of new tracks for their upcoming shows.

Upcoming shows includes two Malaysian dates, one of which in KL,
another in Ipoh with a touring Aussie metalcore band,
and lastly the annual Slaughterhouse Massacre to be held at Scape, youth park.

Check out new tracks entitled "Beauty is skin deep", "Timeless" as well as "Every Rage I Seek".
See you there.

I owe many people an apology.
For those who know me, i dont run.
Im not shutting down my blog, im not ignoring sentences,
i am not going to run.

Watch me, hear me, and for some, forgive me if any of you could..

I am sorry.

I apologise to you now, Irna, for letting out so much damage and
jeapordising everything that you and i built.
For putting you in deep angst, and for me being defiant.
I wouldn't want to apologise only behind closed doors, so im placing it here.
Put this in mind people, that Im apologising because im wrong,
and not because im trying to redeem myself.
But if I could, then im most thankful. I am ever thankful.
Im defending myself no more. Cause the bottom line is clear.
And im still here, placing my white flag, and embracing it.
It takes a man to be doing sins,
but i suppose it takes a real man to admit it and sincerely say he's sorry.
People of today would find it hard to buy that 5 letter word,
but im putting my word right here, that i'll strive so hard till
hopefully, one fine day, you would take it, keep it
and eventually, I won't even have the need to say it no more. Ever again.
To everyone, im not typing this blindly.
I know my consquences for putting these words and putting my trust and faith on the line.
All of you here read it. And im here to abide by it.
At the end of the day, its up to you individuals to bypass it.
To you people who would take these words as bullshit,
then hey, go ahead. I understand. Despise me.
My friends, I am wrong. So back me up no more.
Neglect me not, however guide me instead to fulfill my words.

Above all, Im wronged. I am truly sorry.

After all that has been said,
should anyone still would like to hear me say personally,
let me know. Tagboard's right there.
And should anyone wants to vent their grudges against me,
I'll be at Wheelock 5 days a week.
My band is playing tomorrow at the Malay Village, you can find me there too.

After this post, i'll be thankful if anyone would still see Rasul the same way as before.
But even if you dont, it'll still be ok, as long as it has served justice to any of you.
If you realise, this post is meant not to just one, nor two people.
Its meant for everyone else too, those who helped, those who were disgusted,
basically those who were there during the times of mayhem.

I dont think you would all hear me bring this up anymore.
Not because i'm being a coward.
But because i dont want to inflict any harm to the heart for you, for them and for me.

As of right now, im putting my chin and up and walk.
Again, i am so sorry.
Come what may.

I would like to end with this..
"Learn to love and love to learn"
it makes perfect sense to me.

Thank you and have a lovely day.

Rasul.
(No more rasoool).

Hi.
I dont know what has to become of me right now.
I turned to be the monster which i swore i hate.
Guilt, runs in my veins, and im not ignoring that. Im not anymore.
NO, im not letting guilt consume me. It pays.
Proves and evidence, are time sensitive. It might bloom or it might get lost.
Proves and guilts, coincide, to redeem, to purify and to cleanse.
In turbulence times like these, we seek solace. But fuck, im never forgiving myself.
Cause I shant, i cant, but above all, i just.. wont.

Glad i am its happening now.. Rather then when we are of age.
Cause if we were, then i might just be as good as dead.
But yes of cause, how i wish the world is trouble-free in the first place. How wld that be.

Learn i will, pick things up i shall, preaching whatever is taught and desired.

In time. In time.
Heed.

I am truly sorry Irna.
I love you,
and i'll show you right from me from here on out.
I love you,
and for that i'll change for good and really be the guy you deserved.
I love you,
and i'll stretch out my last till the very end.

Till the very end,
I love you.

and Im sorry to have caused so much.

@---- here.

i will always be the faulter.
no matter what i do.
no matter where i go.
no matter how it happened.

and each time i am,
i hope someone will always be there smiling happy..

Hi, im Rasul,
and im your fault today.
(that's your que to smirk)

___________________________________________________________________

Ohh how i fucking despise this.
Countless amount of effort on constructing something big
but it takes a blink of an eye to send it all crumbling down again.
The ire works of mother nature.
BUT only oneself to blame.

Im sorry.

A happy 19th Birthday to me.
And an even happier 5th month anniversary to us.

I love you always Irna.

FUCK YOU LIFE!
FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

FUCKING IMMATURE BITCHES!
TRYING TO RUIN MY FUCKING LIFE!
ALL IS WELL AND SWEET, AND YOU GUYS WANT TO BURN IT DOWN?
YOU WANNA SEE IT BEING BURN DOWN?!
WELL ITS FUCKING LOST NOW, ALRIGHT. AND I HOPE EVERYONE'S GODDAMN HAPPY ABOUT IT.
SUPRISED IM NOT IF IM LOSING EVERYTHING, GUESS I SOMEWHAT DESERVE IT.
BUT YOU KIDDY PUSSY ARSEHOLES ARE THE FUCKING SOURCE OF IT ALL!
MOVE. FUCKING. ON!!!
MOVE. FUCKING. OVER!!!
MOVE. FUCKING. OUT!!!
OF MY WAS BEAUTIFUL LIFE.
OUT, FOR FUCKING FOREVER!

KIDDY BASTARDS.
YOU CUNTS GUARANTEED YOURSELFS A 19 YR OLD MIDDLE FINGER/FIST VERY SOON.
VERY SOON.
MARK. MY. WORDS.
FUCKERS.

Join me as i celebrate my last year of my life with a "teen" hanging at the back of my age.
Ohh this is so sad.
Haha.

In any case, Selamat Hari Raya people.

PS: Irna, I love you too. Alot.
:]