14/02/08. horrible day.

8 people out of 80.
fucking stupid. waste my fucking time.
went through exam questions.
i swear the lecturer gave us answers. direct, exact answers.
worse lecturer ever.
no wonder your "oh so good" degree students complained, kicking your rice bowl.
oh but wait, "i dont have to be here, i earn $300 an hour outside."
THEN WHY YOU EVEN FUCKING BOTHER BITCH?!
but thanks for the answers anyway.
got quite a schedule this weekend, so thanks for the shortcut bitch.

PRICK. fucking loser.
look at you. walkin abt doin stupid things, heads down.
fake smiles up and around.
FUCKING GET UP ALREADY?!

and you. ohhh you.
i dont know what to say.
you failed me.
thats all there is.
but its not too late. not too late.
all this time. all this while.
its not for fun you know.
i meant what i did. i meant what i say.
my intentions are purely sincere and true.
are not were. its not too late.
but i guess you're on the verge.

and some people just wont compromise!!!
after allllllllllllllll the heart and soul i put in.
i let you ppl sit back. the least i want is a simple 6 letter word.
too much to ask for? its okay.
but for everyone's sake, have some sense of priorities. pleeease.



im sick and tired of things alright.
when you're there, pouring your heart out over commitments that matters most to you
and 'the other' neglects it somehow, someway, it kinda degrades you.
but things cant always go my way. i know. and im aware of that.
but i could have atleast sworn that i tried running empathy.
in some cases i tried leaving space. i tried having a piece of mind (for 'the other').
but no. my heartfelt efforts doesnt seem to solve it.
im sick of being nice.
im better of being the bitch i used to.

well.. too bad bitches end up nowhere.

times like these.. i just realised (7 seconds ago), you might need to seek faith.
return and strengthen.
i hope none of you understood what is written.
for all i know i'll wake up the next morning, regretting why i post this.
thank you.