Some days you feel shit. Some days you dont.
Another bad week this is. Thou nothing bad in particular happen, it's the lonely, boring, non-productive day-to-day happenings which builds up to the current state. I feel like im throwing my days away. Ironically, it turned out that school is the one and only thing which i sincerely anticipate for. 3 months back, school is the shitty event of the day. No friends, lonely breaks and total self-study. But now, thanks to a particular classmate, im having enjoyable lunch breaks, study groups, an interactive class and even college gossips. Thanks.
But other then that, december has been nothing but shit. Im sick of people disturbing me. Im sick of being lonely. Im sick of trying soo hard to get a.. .
Why must i be disturbed? Is that an issue worth being laughed at? Get straight and tell me what you actually want or need. Im sick of it. Im sick of getting pointed and laughed at for seeking a companion. Effin bullshit.
Im even sick of favours. Each time, setting my foot in the house, and off triggers another favour. For goodness effin sake, i reached home, tired, somewhat wasted, and moody, and you expect me to do such favours? Shit, in this kinds of conditions i dont think i can even perform well in school. Im just pretty fucked up in all ways, physically, mentally, and more importantly, emotionally.
Gone the days of me being the extrovert that i am, going rounds feeling all jovial.

ERIS is jamming tomorrow. I so need to beat that bloody drums till the skins got blasted.
I hope it works, venting. I hope tomorrow would be a better day.