Imy.

Exactly how over-rated the term has become?
Ppl are using it now ever so casually - to the extend that they'll even use it to those whom they dont really give shit to.

Do you remember, once, in your most darkest & loneliest of days, when all you could see is your own world crashes and falls upon you?
You try not to weep.
You try to stand.
You try to pull yourself together.
You try to fight all the things that bring you down.. but all to no avail.
Instead, in that moment, you look up to the stars, and your mind starts to draw the face of a person you ever loved so dearly once before, and automatically, your heart whispers the term.

The phrase, serving its purpose in all purity and sincerity.

Unlike the way the kids do now.

One more day to the 'DI - Furtive Monologue' video release!!! yeaaaarggghhhh!!!

-_- haha.

Hello all.

plans for the week? lets see..

mon - severed jam.
tue - intense study!
wed - session with zaddyman then shopping.. i hope. heh.
thurs - EveryRageISeek jam! YESSA!
fri - jalan raya with Eris and other kids, YESSA part two!
sat - dxo?
sun- intense study part two!

you can tell im not that much of a home-ly person.
kaki gatal sngt. sakit2 pun kluar.

anyway, next week, Business Accounts and Business IT exams.
damn.. gotta read up alot. im confident with bizz IT but accounts? erm.. I NEED HELP IN ACCOUNTS!

ohh, and im sooo craving for the movies. idk why. i just missed it soo much.
the comfy seats, the nacho cheese, the loud effects, trailers.. baaah.
anyone?? M18 pun boleh ah babe. :p

Im bored..
So here's another random post for ya!

Damn.
Im soo digging this song, You Can't Win.
And the lyrics.. had a huge impact on me.
Klau nyanyi2 feeling seh.. haha!





You Can't Win

I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am.
And now I am tired and fucking ugly and I hate it but it's all I can be.
Locked up, fucked up but I know I'm not the only one.
I hear that life goes on, but I guess just not for everyone.
Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss.
The memories can make me happy but now I'm fucking pissed! Hopeless.
Irrationally searching every single dimension to find a way to bring me closer to you.
It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off the sides of my face and it feels as if somehow I swallowed a fucking shoe.
I want to tear out my throat so just for a minute I might be able to finally breathe.
What has happened to me?
Not a day goes by when I didn't wish I were still living in September 2005.
I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain.
And I can't stop asking why. Now I see that life is just a game.
Sometimes everyday with out you, is another day I wish I didn't have to go through.
It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away.
I never wanted you to go away.
I hang my head deep into my chest, tormented to realize that for now this is the best.
I want my life back, I want your life back more than anything.
I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am,
and to some degree I always feel like shit because your... Gone, forever.
Gone, taken from me. Gone, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I used to think depression had nothing to do with me.
Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery.
Because some dumb fucking asshole made some bad choices,
and he landed on you, and we all pay the price.
..Now I know the meaning of being alone.

Im tired.
..tired of/in many things.
at times lost, frustrated.. shit, whatever man.
this is not me but i cant help it.. its happening.

anyway, this saturday.. the supposedly raya outing with sec mates.
but dang, i miss going for shows.
but dont get me wrong, i miss them sec mates too. haiyahh..
maybe half half la like that. :s

no sch next week.. study week.
following week, exam week.
then frm then on, 90% band matters and 10% soul-searching.. yeah!
wtf.

ohh, and im allowed to go for the MYHC Fest BUT DAMN(!),
it crashes with the 24th nov ERIS gig.
sheeeesshhhh-kebab. mengamukkkk!

What, you wanna know how i'm doing?






....Pretty fcuked up ya got that?!

Tickets for the 'Welcome To The SlaughterHouse Massacre' event is out!
Tagg, email, text, comment, morse code me for tix!
Buy early and pay less.. only from us! I promise!

almost the best gigging season this coming holidays.
soo many shows going on, and most of which appeals soo much to me.

out of a boredom, here's a collective of posters of the gigs to come.

i have the sudden urge to watch the movies. i miss it.
and im bored like almost every afternoon.
anyone? baaah. useless, i know.

Happy Raya to one and all!

err.. hari raya, like i said in the previous post, im not psyched at all. and i still dont know why. damn..
but anyway, family had our raya in Msia for the first time on the first day. usually, we'll go like weeks past the actual day but not this year as family wants to celebrate it there while it's still "happenin" ya know. i dont quite like the idea in the first place because apart from the ringgits i'll be getting (HAHA, JOKE), i dont really know that much people there besides dear granny and the many aunties which (until today) im still confused of how are they related to me. mommy's got a HUGE family tree you see. which it somehow derives to a conclusion that grandpap's very the hardcore. ;) HAHAHAHA!
so anyway, yeah we all went with it..
consider me lucky for actually having a kampung lah eh.

admit, i look stupid. but seriously, you cant blame me for getting all restless during the 4hour+ ride to malacca. with prawn crackers, chocolates, coke, mp3 and a book, we're all set for one boring road trip yey!

i dont think we singaporeans can play bunga api and firecrackers like they do in malaysia. frickin huge firesticks. some are even deadly.. one uncle demonstrated a 'grenade' like firecracker which you gotta light it up on one end and you gotta throw it away within 2secs or you'll lose your finger. its scary and loud i tell ya! too bad i dont have that one on video.

this is a random video. my younger siblings enjoy playing with this cat. they call her (or him.. or it?!) Comel. dont ask me why.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri from yours truly,

Rasoool.

Hello.
Nothing much to say.
Everything is oookay (only). haha.

break (or shld i say, broke?) fast with asshar, ath and sheeka last night.
pretty fun despite the many cock-ups in organizing. haha.
ath, your pentium 0.05 brother says thank you. and pay up that asshar!

hari raya's next week. why am i not psyched like i used to? urgh.

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Thank you.
All of you for your sincere wishes.
You guys made this the most flooded spam of bday greetings i ever had. :E

ahaa.

and seriously, what the hell laa mama!
mother bought this cake. family think it's a joke.. erks.
we had a good laugh. but pleaseee remember laa, im 18!
aishhhh, but its okay, thank you mum and dad. :)




ASAL MESTI POWER RANGERS SEH! -____- hmmph!

Lets get legal!

This better be a good week. heh heh.
See yall.