Err.
Tadaa?
Im such an amateur when it comes to html codings.
Can someone help me to get rid of the add above?
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Hi.

I'm falling sick. Again!
I tend to fall sick easily man.
Yesterday night i was shivering like as if
im gonna get frozen like that.
My teeth was grinding waaay faster
than the fastest drummers in the world.
My body was shaking soo violently
it looks as if im doing some bhangra dance.
And my temperature,
soo hot macam orang dier jugak.
HAHAHAHA! perasaan nk mampos.
joking eh. i know tk perlu
tapi nk ketawekan diri sendiri tkleh ke?!
no, but really, im falling sick.
and i dont know if i should go out later. :s

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i mean, brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. :}

assignments/projects are all done.
i feel like a free man now. lol.
next week, exam week.
then 2 weeks holiday. yey.

hmm.

When Open Inverted Commas Close

I fight this war all the time, the classic distant cold war.
These silent wings take me up high and they drop me to die.
Should I just sit here and be burnt?
Or do I put out your flames of gossip?

You point the gun at my head. You cease the joy that I apprize.
The imp of my content, The very seed of accidents.
Just forget the history. Don't start conspiracy.

This fighting and crying and lying, backstabbing.
You find every way to make life worst for me.
I'm melting, I'm crumbling, I'm tired
and Left in the mercy of your sick corroded mind.

Why are you, laughing in my face?
Take your slander out of my place.

Though I am angry, I stop and discern.
And if you won't ask me, then I will not tell.
Someone tell me what I am to do.
Can you fix me? Or pull me through?
Does this give you an outbreak of constant pleasure?
It makes me disgusted and makes my stomach stir.
I can't make out what it is chasing me from afar.
I'm so tired of this conspiracy that's been inspecting me.
Take us away from the hammer and the anvil.
Keep me from Hobson's choice.
I get so scared, that I could lose a friend so dear.
Now and again, my heart. My heart skips a beat.
You think you see right through me.
Plotting your murder, teaching your students,
The art of breaking a friendship that's so innocent.
Stabbing me one by one. Not taking any chances.

I must learn to love the sinner, hate the sin.

Hellu.

I found a very interesting article in the newspaper today.
Read okay! Here goes..

A tale of two diaries.
Wife's diary.
Sunday night.
I thought he was acting wierd. We made plans to meet at a cafe to have coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so i thought he was upset that i was abit late, but he made no comment.
I asked him what was wrong, he said, "Nothing".
On the way home i told him that i loved him. He simply smiled and kept driving. When we got home, i felt as if i had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore.
He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant, absent.
Finally, i went to bed. I cried until i fell asleep. I dont know what to do. Im almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.
My life is a disaster.

Husband's Diary.
Today, MAN U lost the match. DAMN IT!

_______________________________

HAHA!
Good laugh isnt it?
Well, i certainly did had one.
This is one of the reasons why girls
are such ___(insert crude word there) species.
Heh.
I mean seriously, THAT incident kinda happened to me
before and it certainly wasnt pleasant.
Moreover, we men are the ones getting blamed for "ignoring her".
And what we men usually do is to reply a simple,
"but what did i do?!" kinda phrase. Ahahaha.
Its funny really the way i look at it. Dont you think so?
In a light-hearted way of cause.
Oh well, like they say, men from Mars, women from Venus.
Bye!

*off for some soul searching.
:]

Hi.

A few comebacks have returned.
Again, what am i to do?
Set fake welcomes and see you
in your craft of which - leaving me in discontent?
I'll pass that. Instead, i'll venture.
These options are kept open for far too long.
But what are the results? I only end up with excuses.
And what is meant to bring solace
only ends up to the opposite.
But hating what i create is just.... stupid.
So why stop now. I still seek.
They say good things comes for those who wait right?
Well i better receive the BEST of all things cause
im sure i've waited long enough.
Now, what are you to do?
Sit back, relax and observe me,
as i let you all down again.

_________________________________________________


Alohahaa.

Friday's jamming was surprisingly super-gerek ah.
New ties enforced. New tunes created.
mmmm promising, very promising.
aaah, therapy never fails eh.
Just, dont let me/us down again please?
I love you kids [BAND!] alot. :)
[cheesy/gay i know, but fuck la. heh]

Saturday, nothing more than a date with
azhar in the afternoons.
Whoah, seeing people with gfs never fail
to make me jealous these days.
I mean it's almost everywhere isn't it.
It's starting to get annoying. :(
Baaaaaah, i want to cling on to someone and
let her rest on my shoulders watching fireworks too you know!
It may the simplest thing, but i bet my heart will be
like skipping in circles cause i soo long for it laa.
LOL.
Okay why am i talking like this?!

see laa, now no mood to continue
the day's journal. :(
HAHAHAHAHA.
fuct.

Harrlow.

Random:
I felt wierd twice today.

1. I reached home early. 5pm to be exact. I haven't been returning home this early since i finished ITE. Thanks to all the work and outings which prompted me to be home atleast at 7.

2. Went out arnd 6plus to fetch lil bro frm school (which is down the road, 4 blocks away). Stepped out of the house, wearing an old, short soccer shorts and a plain tee. I don't know what was i thinking when i was putting them slippers on. The top probably look bigger than the shorts. It's been awhile since i wear sooo slack outside the house. I used to "turun bawah main bola, pakai sakai ah" that kinda thing ya'know. But now, i hardly have the time to do sit-ups. :p heh.

I've been having flashbacks and i've been keeping very quiet.
Honestly, i don't know whats up.
And i guess, i need something new in life.
A few days back, a friend said, "cheer up, you're rasoool".
That kinda work. A little..
Rasoool, Rasoool..

Anyway, tomorrow's jamming so..
Im hoping to have a good time.
School is beginning to insert pressure.
And i wouldn't want to fail myself this time. [Nooo boy, not again]
I've been missing alot of people too.
So, make a note to spark me this weekend yeah.
HAH.

Find a way
Do you know that I still think about you?
Even though I know that it's too late.
Do you know that I'm still missing you?
Especially right now you're far away.
There's no need to for you to tell me that; "I'm sorry",
There's no need for you to tell me that I'm sorry,
I said I'm sorry, I said I'm sorry...

Chorus;
I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking of you
I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking...

I don't think everything's alright.
I guess im tired of what's been happening.
Maybe im just a bad and evil human by nature.
However, im sick of hurting people.
I never even want to, to begin with.
And i certainly don't know why it has to end this way.
But i guess, things like these wld never stop.
Not until i satisfy my wants and needs that is.

At this point, i had enough, and i know the current situation's outcome.
I've seen it all before.
Option A, died. Option B, will die. Option c, I die (temporarily).

Aaah fuck it. Self-realization man.
Do i really need this? DO I?
I still don't know the answer to that.
If you think i do, recommend what you have to offer.
HAHAHAHA. cb. bitches are what bitches do.
Live with it.


p/s: i need jamming ASAP. i cant wait for everryyythinggggg (band wise).

aaah damn.
been sick for 3 days now.
fever, coughs, flu, phlegm.
and now, i can feel a migraine coming up.
oh, and my eyes are starting to cause wierd pains too.

tuesday was fun.
wednesday was sick.
thursday, fun and sick. lol.

ohh, and i just realised the full date was 09/08/07.
style ah kirekan.
ppl are starting fresh new BGRelationships with cool, catchy dates these days.
07/07/07 la, 05/06/07 la. bla bla bla.
okay wth! haha, sorry. random random.

p/s: i messed up with my wallpaper, but really, who gives a shit!
despised icon love yo!

Hi boys,

will update soon.


Rasoool.