alas. an update to please you motha fuckas.

mood; isnt soo good today.
probably one of those days you feel damn restless.
like one precious day given by god is wasted,
by doing nothing good in particular.

for the second time,
i didnt get my school posting.
now im really getting pissed off. and worried.
and i heed to you ppl to stop making jokes out of it.
please.
my own life is at stake. and im beginning to feel the pinch.
just where wld i go? just what wld i do?
just how wld i be in a year's time?
its all troubling my head.
went to 2 different ITEs today.
trying to get my place for a decent study.
theres absolutely no promises frm them that i'll get in.
got my place in the waiting list instead. wtf.
and posting results wld be at the end of the month.
great, just great. I DONT WANT ANOTHER 'FREE' MONTH.
shldn't have quitted my job. atleast i'll earn some money you know.

after that, i had a long walk to a mall.
my head was blank, the day was hot.
along the way, saw foreign workers working in their construction sites.
my heart was giving them the deepest praise.
these normal humans, working in undesireble conditions.
getting treated like fucking shit dogs from their bosses
and survivng on plates of prata.
give them credit assholes. they make your fucking walls.

then next i came across a JC couple,
happy and all, joking, laughing together sipping on bubble teas.
i told myself, 'look at em, they'll have such a bright future ahead.'
well good luck to them.

and lastly, a group of twitty ah lians wearing their school uni (secondary).
i felt like approaching them,
slap them one by one and give a 'lecture' on not taking sch for granted.
and not to just signed a spot to work for a local jewellery shop.
point is, dont throw your life away bitches.

i admit. i shld have done better when im in school.
and i promise i'll do better if i get in to any course which is available.
i dont want to be left astray.
hell, im much worthy than that.

thank you.
i love everyone. now go do your best.